she may look innocent and asleep

but every 5 minutes she farts

and then i can’t breathe

and right when i can breathe again

she does it again

so glad I get to see those ears every day for a very long time :)

Nanook and I today!

I’m probably deleting this from my computer after this because it makes me really sad.. but this is the video I made the morning my mom and I had decided we would probably have to euthanize Nanook.

It was her 7th day without eating, she was throwing up blood, she looked miserable.  I was still under the impression that she had parvo (turns out the first vet I went to misdiagnosed her obviously) and she was at the end of her battle.  I’m so blessed she is finally better and healing from her surgery.  I love her.

aw look at her. she’s so cute and I am so glad she is back home. The doc said she can’t go up and down stairs or jump or run around.. which is the fucking HARDEST thing to do ever. We have like 5 sets of stairs in this house that go to each room literally so I have to carry her everywhere and she is heavy. Plus she finds a way to go down and up them anyways. Back to her little shit ways but I love her.

Last night we went to the Olathe Animal Hospital where Nanook got her surgery, and her doctor filled us in. 

The foreign mass in her stomach was pieces of towel and a few pieces of plastic.  He said it would have passed through easily if it wasnt for a string from the towel that wrapped around the mass, went through her intestines, up her stomach, and was caught on the back of her tongue, keeping the towel and plastic stuck in her small intestines.

She had to get 3 feet of her small intestines taken out.  She also had a hole in her intestines, and a big gash on the back of her tongue from the string. They took out the dead intestines, sewed the healthy parts together, closed up the hole in her intestines, and had to make an incision in her stomach to find the string. 

The doc said that all her labs were normal.  Her electrolytes were good, her blood sugar, etc.  Her white blood count was at around 20,000, which isn’t really bad.. but it’s better to have them around 10,000.  He said that he was absolutely shocked that her labs were that good for the state she was in…but he thinks it was because of all the pedialyte I was giving her that saved her there. 

He said that she still has a long road ahead of her possibly.. depending on if the intestines that he had to sew together do not start dieing like the parts that he had to take out.  That’s really the only concern he had. 

We transported her to Bluepearl Emergency and Specialty Hospital, where she is still.  The vet called me this morning and said she was doing just fine.  I called a few hours ago and they said that she had gone out to pee twice and she was doing great.  Her temperature and labs are normal and everything.  I hope everything stays like this!!

I can’t wait to see my puppy.  Tomorrow I pick her up from Blue Pearl in the morning and take her back to Olathe Animal Hospital for her check up to see if she has to stay there or she can come home with me.

I am so happy and thankful for her recovery so far.. and for all the doctors and vet techs that have helped her so far and been so wonderful to me as well.  I am also very thankful that my grandma offered to pay for the $2,700.00 surgery bill.

I am still paying for her stay at Blue Pearl, which because it is a specialty hospital.. is super expensive.  One day there will cost me around $1,300.00! I have it set up through Care Credit where I can pay it off in 6 months without interest. If anyone would like to help with her hospital bills, there is a Paypal Donate button on my blog on the right side! ANY amount is fine.. even $5.00. So far, I have almost $100.00 in donations! THANKYOU to everyone that has donated so far! It will help me sooo much.  If not, just keep her in your thoughts still! The battle isn’t over until she is home and happy <3

I went to the vet today thinking I’d leave without Nanook and never get to see her cute little face again staring up at me.  

But that’s not how it went today.  The doctor first did another parvo test, which was hard because yet again she had no stool.  Finally they got enough and it was negative.  He then examined her all over, and said he felt a hard, long mass in her abdomen.  I agreed for them to take x-rays, and it shows in the x-rays that she has something stuck in her intestines that is blocking it. 

They are not sure what it is yet… but they are performing an exploratory surgery today to get whatever it is out.  There is a possibility that her intestines might have died off either a little bit or a lot around the mass, so I’m hoping it is not very big.. otherwise it will lessen her chances of survival.  

First of all, I am angry at the vet in Wichita for not feeling her abdomen very well to even feel it.  The vet in Olathe felt it immediatly.  It would have given us more time and saved me money if they would have examined her to the fullest extent.  Not only that, when they asked if Nanook was nice, I said of course. They then had the audacity to say “Oh, they usually are at this age.” referring to the fact that she was a pit bull.  My dog is the biggest sweetheart and has never hurt another person or another dog in her life. I would think at a vet office that would be the last place my dog would be discriminated for her breed.    

Anyways, thankfully, my grandma is helping me with the $2,000.00 fee for surgery and everything at the hospital I took her to.  

But since tomorrow is Thanksgiving, they will be closed.  So I have to transport Nanook to an emergency vet hospital so they can watch her all day.  Just that one day will cost $700.00 or more.  I’ve decided to pay that part, even though I will have to pay it with Care Credit, which is like pet insurance.  If anyone would like to donate to help with her costs, I would appreciate it SO SO much.  Any amount is amazing.  

If not, just keep her in your thoughts.  She’s still fighting.  I’m fighting with her.  And hoping. 

If you would like to donate, here is the paypal link to do it. All the proceeds will go straight to helping with her hospital bills.  If you have any questions, feel free to ask. Thankyou!

https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_donations&business=D3JZBHRUS3DAW&lc=US&item_name=Nanook%20Hospital%20Fees&item_number=Nanook&currency_code=USD&bn=PP%2dDonationsBF%3abtn_donateCC_LG%2egif%3aNonHosted

Nanook a few weeks ago.

A few days ago.  

This morning before she went into surgery. Her poor ribs are sticking out :(

Today is probably my last day I get to spend with Nanook.  I’ve tried so hard.. she’s fought so hard.. but it’s not getting any better.  All her ribs are showing.. it’s been 7 days without food.  I tried feeding her soft food the last two days but she threw it all up.  Last night I was up with her all night because she was throwing up constantly all night.  I am at a loss to what to do now.  It kills me to come to the actual realization of this but my mom told me last night that it’s probably best I put her down and end her pain.  

I just feel like I didn’t give her enough time to get better.  I’m scared that I’ll do it and then what if she would have gotten better the next day or something?!  I’m just scared period of the fact that she won’t be alive anymore.  She is only 7 months old… she didn’t even get a chance to really live.  She was my first dog.. my pride and joy.  I love her so much.  God I’m crying a river just writing this. 

I just don’t understand why just last week she was running around..barking.. jumping on me… trying to eat the cookie batter I was making for my trip to Oklahoma.. and then the next day BAM. She is throwing up everywhere. I just don’t understand and don’t think I ever will.  It frustrates me and confuses me.  I just want my puppy.  The dog I’ve wanted since I was a little kid.  The dog I took everywhere with me.  The dog everyone at my apartment complex knew by name even if they messed up how to pronounce it.  The dog that literally slept by my side every single night in my bed and was always so happy to see me everytime I walked through the door.  

And I only got to spend 5 months with the best dog I ever had.  How is this fair. Why didn’t the past week of spending every minute with her giving her medicine… staying up all night to make sure she had someone to pet her and clean up the mess after she threw up.. being there to carry her outside just to go potty because she is too weak to even walk outside herself…just putting my body next to hers for warmth and so she knew I was with her… why couldn’t it have worked. 

Today.. I’m losing my best friend, my companion, my child. I love you Nanook. Always.  I’m sorry we couldn’t have spent our lives together.. I wish so much we could have.  

Today she has gotten up twice and went outside and went potty… she threw up once but other than that she has been doing okay.  

She has been drinking water.. but still will not eat anything.  Her big ears have been standing up more today too.  She refuses to take her pill so I have resorted to crushing it up, dissolving it in warm beef broth and using a syringe to squirt it into her mouth.  Luckily her other two medicines are liquid.  I’ve also been giving her Pedialite every once in a while.  

I’ve been in and out of thinking the worst and hoping for the best.. but at the moment I’m thinking she will get through this.  She walked up to the couch and jumped up and is laying next to me right now, so atleast she isn’t hiding in the corner like she has for the past day.

 I just wish she would start eating.  The vet gave me soft food, and I tried putting some in her mouth but she just left it laying inside her mouth and refused to eat it.  She isn’t out of the woods yet so everyone keep thinking about her! 

Her and I headed to Wichita last night and when we got to my sisters she was not acting right.  She ended up throwing up atleast 8 times and couldn’t keep any water down and didn’t eat that whole day.  She isn’t her usual energetic self and stays laying down because if she gets up she throws up.  

I took her to the vet this morning and they said she could possibly have Parvo, but couldn’t get a big enough stool sample to tell because her bowels were clean.  They gave me 3 different medicines and I got Pedialite and I’ve been giving her that as well as making sure she drinks some water.  

She threw up her medicine for the first round, so I’m trying it again and hoping for the best that she will keep it down.  She is a lot more alert and is putting her ears up more and keeping her head up so that is good, but she hasn’t gotten up since she got home from the vet.

I have been a complete mess all day, especially since this was supposed to be my weekend in Oklahoma with Shawn, which I cancelled unfortunately… so I will be by her side 24/7 while i’m here in Wichita and hoping she keeps all her fluids down gradually.  

Just everyone.. please think about her.  She’s only 7 months old and I’ve never seen her like this.  If she doesn’t get better by Sunday we will have to take her back to the vet and do more tests.  We might have to put her down.  She’s always been the happiest little puppy and hasn’t even gotten a chance to really live and so all I can do is hope and watch and nurture and give her all her medicine when it’s needed. 

my mother got Nanook this for when she is cold since it’s been chilly lately. I wish the hood stayed on all the time she looks like a gangstaaaaa

Nanook having a cute little dream. She does this a lot.. and I’m hoping to catch on video her “noise” she does sometimes.. I can’t even explain it but it’s odd. Excuse my messy closet I try it all on every morning for work and throw it all in there! :)

Happy Halloweenie From Nanook!